Yeah, this is home.

I wanna go home,
I said it on day one (school)
I wanna go home,
I said it when the anxiety attacks started
I wanna go home,
I said it when the suicidal thoughts returned
I wanna go home,
I said it in the hospital when I was almost admitted
I wanna go home,
I said it when I had “the thoughts” again
I wanna go home,
All I said when I was being admitted
I’ll be fine, just get better,
I said while I was meeting the patients
I wanna go home,
I said it when I noticed you were gone
I wanna go home,
I said it when I called you in tears
I wanna go home,
I said it when you came but they wouldn’t let me go with you
I wanna go home,
I said it as I cried myself to sleep
Take me home..please..take me home,
I said it when you called the next morning
I wanna go home,
I said it when you took me home
I wanna go home,
I say it even though I am home to this day

All I wanna do is go home…

-I wrote this about my experience with anxiety and suicidal thoughts which ended up in me going to a mental hospital in the beginning of the school year. I never harmed myself, but the choice in going to the hospital was my fault.
I wrote this for my parents and dog, and for all my friends. I’m happy to be home where I belong.


I am home. And I will fight anxiety.
Stay strong.